The scariest monsters are the ones that lurk inside our souls.
Tuesday, June 18, 2013 | 7:29 AM | 0 comments
I rub my eyes and look around but you’re not here
I close my eyes again and open them but you’re still not here
I thought I’d be fine without someone like you but
I keep looking back at the memories of our give and take
Tears and memories spill out as if I’m vomiting
Everything is over
I’ll stop for you & me
—— Crying / Sistar
So basically, June has been a bitch to me.
I feel like shit. Like shit shit. I want to die now please. I'm so tired and stressed out, I can't even. The chances of me failing JCTs just pressurizes me to a whole new level. And every time I stop to take a break, this voice behind me just tells me that I am going to fail. I do not want to fail. I want to do well. I don't know why but I want to. I can't stand looking at a "F" on my report book. There's so much to study but so little time. Sometimes, I just wan to give up totally. I can't do this. I have no idea how much longer I can handle being like this. I thought I was almost done studying but after doing all the practice papers from school, I feel like crying okay.
Ugh, I really don't know anymore.
I hate my life. I hate myself. I hate you. I hate everyone.
Screw all of this.
Bye.
